An excerpt from Chris Steerman's volunteer experience recollection at Ground Zero:
I didn’t know it, but this was about to be the first day I would be able to view the site (ground zero) first hand. It was late in the afternoon and I was standing outside talking to some “local volunteers”. These were two local young woman who were helping out but it was unclear exactly who they were associated with. They had the hard hats, face masks and I think were mostly helping to direct people places. These women indicated that they intended to walk closer to the site (a couple blocks away) and asked if I would like to join them. I agreed and we began to make our way down there, dodging trucks and heavy equipment, trudging through the tan mud that was the result of so much pulverized concrete.
We walked down to the site. I was conscious of all the rescue workers scrambling around, and watched them go in and out of a tent that was set up nearby. I wondered what kind of support was available for these guys (mostly they were men). Everyone was on duty, and therefore dealing with his or her own stuff. It was so grim. I wanted to go over to see if I could help in some way but wondered if I would be welcome as an “outsider” and as one who was not going through the work itself. I had noticed how these guys hang together in groups when they came up to the shelter for food or rest. It was as if they were in a very special club and no one else could possibly understand what they were experiencing but each other. They had each other for support but they were all “running on empty” as far as I could tell.
I had picked up a newspaper that morning before coming down to the site. I felt as if this was my main contribution of the day – that newspaper got passed around and around and eventually disappeared completely. Every once in awhile I would catch some dirty, exhausted worker sitting all by himself and intently reading the newspaper. It seemed that they craved an overall of the macrocosm to help them place their microcosm in perspective.